Danelle came to the side James was on. She glared at him as she got closer, “You have been a bad boy.”
“Why? What did I do?”
“She was supposed to talk to me before doing anything crazy.”
He laughed, “We didn’t have much time to consult with you. It was a spur of the moment thing.”
She slowly sat on the bed being so light I couldn’t feel the movement either.
She was still glaring at him, “I don’t approve.”
Clarissa stopped him before he left the room, “Jake sit, this involves you too.”
Jake didn’t understand how family business included him, so he was reluctant as he moved back to the window, this time just leaning there, as if to keep his personal feelings in check. James raised the bed and propped me up. What I really wanted to do was go to sleep. I was really foggy and my head was spinning.
“We have something to tell you boys. Sorry, Sarah, you will just have to tolerate this if you can, or you can go to sleep. It doesn’t matter if you are awake, because this it is about the boys.”
I was going to fight to stay awake no matter how I was feeling. I had to hear what she was going to say. I didn’t want her to lecture Jake, and I didn’t want her to scold James.
“Jake, I didn’t know all this stuff either. I was walking away from it, and I thought I wouldn’t have it if I left. I didn’t use it to win her heart. I did it to keep her feeling better, happy for one, and not sick for the other.”
“You didn’t give her a choice.”
“Jake, no matter what I used, she always had a choice. I always give her that option.”
“She knows you feel everything; I would have kissed her and she would have kissed me back, but she was afraid of hurting you.”
“Because she had a choice, brother.”
Dad was trying to understand, “You two are that connected?”
We both answered, “Yes.”
“I am not going to get used to this; it’s weird.”
I could see a glimmer of happiness as he replied to my dad, “The funny thing about it is I didn’t know that I was doing it.”
“What do you mean?”
“When she was getting sick she would call to me, and I would give her my soul to help her deal with it.”
“Okay, how does that work?”
“It’s like, I don’t know how to explain it, but I could move through her. She did better after I did that. I just concentrate really hard about making her better and it just happens.”
“But, it’s not good for either of you.”
“Nope, but I didn’t know that at the time. The more she needed it the more I did it. It seemed to help her fight it off. Sarah, how many days did you go without getting sick?”
All of a sudden I felt her.
“Jake, you have to pull over. Shit.”
“She is dreaming. You have…. Oh shit. Pull over.”
He was moving to the side of the road.
I opened the door and got out, “Jake, wake her up now.”
“Why, what is going on?”
I pleaded with Jake to wake her because she was going to have her way with me, “Jake, wake her NOW! Please.”
I turned away from him and leaned with my back to the truck bending over. Oh, my god, little girl, you are going to drive me crazy. I could hear him trying to wake her. Oh shit, she has to quit dreaming. I couldn’t stop it, and she wanted more. Shit, “Jake, wake her now!”
He wrapped his arms around me to move me closer to the shower. He helped me wash my hair first. I was standing on my own when he did this. When he tilted my head back to rinse it he came in for a deep kiss. His mouth on mine was mesmerizing. I could have jumped his bones right then if I could have moved without pain. He took the soap and was washing every curve of my body running his hand delicately and slowly over areas he wanted to spend more time on. When he moved back up my body to look me in the eyes again he spoke into my lips, “Oh god, please help me to have strength.” His lips pressed to mine hard and deep.